holdin' on

I wish I was stronger. Faster. More in control. Funnier. More articulate. Smarter. But God made me in His image and through that imperfect mirror here I am. And everyday I try to polish this mirror so that I may be like Him someday...

Holdin'on by Citizen Cope

I have been wantin you for so long
I have been wantin you for so long (so long)
I been down I been down a diferent road
I been out I have been out of control

But girl when you touch me that yeah
I get my senses back yeah
But when you touch me that yeah (that yeah)
I get my senses back yeah

So now i'm feelin right
Cuz nothing feels like when you're holdin on
Said I feel alright
Cuz nothing feels like when you're hodin on
I feelin alright
Cuz nothing feels like when you're holdin on
when you're holdin on

I wanna treat you like you wanna be treated yeah
I wanna see you as you wanna be seen yeah
I been down I been down a different road
I been out I have been out of control

But girl when you touch me that yeah
I get my senses back yeah (back yeah)
But when you touch me that yea (that yeah)
I get me sense back yeah

So now i'm feelin right
Cuz nothing feels like when you're holdin on
Said I feel alright
Cuz nothing feels like when you're holdin when you're holdin
I feelin alright
Cuz nothing feels like when you're holdin on
when you're holdin on

Who did you think I was?

A belated Happy 2006 to all. To the many readers that i don't have, I apologise. All thanks to Cherie, who gave a friendly nudge about updating my blog. Really wish I was back in SG to spend some time with you guys. Good things come to those who wait I guess...

I woke up yesterday with a sense of urgency. I realised I'll turn friggin' 26 with nothing much accomplished. Not raking in the big bucks, no degree yet, nobody to call my own. Maybe this is what's meant by a quarter life crisis.

But then I look around and I realised that the sum experiences of my life are invaluable. You can't barter it, can't sell it. The relationships that I've formed with the people here in Adelaide and in Singapore has been nothing short of life-enriching. And all the random people that I've met in the weirdest of places (it's gotta do with my penchant for talking to people and being geniune about it) has given me such a myriad experience of feelings. And I must say, I'm am done with loss and grief. I've experienced this combination at this most acute in 2004 and realised it's eaten away my 2005. Forward to new things in 2006 I say. Charmy, if you happen to be reading this, I leave you with this song. Think only the Rachael Yamagata version sits well with me...

I wish you love

Goodbye, no use leading with our chins
This is where our story ends
Never lovers, ever friends
Goodbye, let our hearts call it a day
But before you walk away
I sincerely want to say

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love

And in july a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
But more than wealth
I wish you love

My breaking heart and i agree
That you and i could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love